Lethaly less Lethal(Or maybe?)

**Jeazyyy** · 04-20-2011, 08:03 PM

>Give up video games
>Sell account for USD
>Run out of XC season
>Work out more every day, twice a day sometimes 7 days a week(used to do 3)
>months pass
>didn't take much more toning
>bitcheses mirin'
>look like marth avatar but less tan, bigger
>weeks ago
>benchan
>warm up 1plate!lmao!one!!eleven!!!one!
>empty gym
>ive been on platau for weeks
>must pass
>empty gym
>mfw :l
>set up for 230
>rep 3x
>one more
>get 1/2 ROM
>can't move it
>fuck
>fuck
>fuck
>fuck
>slide forward
>try to throw weight behind me
>lands on right hand, specific middle finger
>it's stuck
>twist around
>get it unstuck
>it was snadwhiched between metal
>blood everywhere
>no YMCA workers in room
>nobody sees me because empty
>go to recpetion desk
>trail blood
>can i has bandaid
>blood everywhere
>go back to working out
>blood everywhere
>find douche bags working at gym
>can i has more bandaid
>"sht what did u do"
>dropped weight it's fine look i can even move it
>i can't move it
>damn i'll have to do a write up bro
>no it's cool
>walk away and ignore
>leave gym head down
>Fix finger
>next day can't move
>next couple days i can move it a little
>imokaywiththis.jpg
>week(?) pass, more movment, lots of pain
>Monday night three weeks ago
>wake up on weekend
>pain
>right middle finger is completely black
>ohshitohshitohshitohshitohshitoshit
>I love you >.<♥I love you >.<♥I love you >.<♥I love you >.<♥ everywhere what do
>go to emergency room
>Pain
>"never seen anything like it"
>apparently broke finger
>didn't heal right
>cells divide like crazy, die off (not cancer?)
>no not cancer
>die off because bone didn't heal, infected somehow(i was clean with it)
>i didn't even notice lumps in my finger
>okay doctor just give me pill and i go home kthx
>no
>why
>did u not see xray
>i did
>I'm sorry, it has to come off. "it is rotting"<-exact quote
>wide eyes
>no way
>>ohshitohshitohshitohshitohshitoshit
>they amputate
>I have no right middle finger
>give me list of excersizes i cannot do in case my other fingers are messed up
>days past
>i am depressed
>I cry at night, still do
>I am depressed
>lower weight limits
>i have no middle finger
>I am an amputee
>depressed

defeated.jpg

Last thread I ever post in. I am done.